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There must have been something that has changed when I started to write about hope and resolve and closure more than regrets and tears. There must have been something that has changed when I no longer bottled up my sadness so it could turn to anger to fuel my existence. There must have been something that has changed when I could say my faults without hating the bitterness of its taste. There must have been something that has changed when I cried not abhorring circumstances and consequences but realizing it’s hard to take back sharp words and actions. There must have been something that has changed when I started to eat three times a day, when I could count to ten to get my anger into controlled calmness, when the future started to clear out, when I started to have faith again, when I decided hurting myself had no direction. There must have been something that has changed when I realized I could be robbed of everything and I’d still live for myself. I’ve only been trying to get better, and I’ve been slipping up, but I’m grateful that somehow, I’m getting there.

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